ok so I have worked on my book and my final for illustartion and im done with the illustration woot!!

As i worked today all i could think about was this is do on this day and this is due on this day. So I took a break and started looking for OCC stuff for kevin for christmas. I was looking at the wall papers on the occ website when i found this. And it hit something. What jr. said here just hit home for me and made me think about all this stuff and how the dates were holding me back thinking i dont have time when all i need to do is work on them and i will have them done in no time. So i wanted to share this little piece of advice with all of you as we head in to the end of our last few days of the semster.
Good Luck all and dont let Tator and Dr. Ducktape get you down!!!

just another monday

Ok so it was a semi normal monday. learned how to profestional and how to talk in public. Well i did that in high school alot so im ok with just has been a long time since i had to do it so im a little uneasy about it.

I worked on ads today and some pages for my book. I plan on knocking out a good lot of my zoo stuff tomorrow in mrs desktops class. If i can make it 2 more weeks i have to got it. I just hope i can pass the big math test if i cant pass it in 2 trys i have to retake that class. I hate math i all ways have.

I spent the weekend with friends and playing my game some. We went out to see a movie something we dont do offten. Went to see Happy Feet. I loved it. Very cute movie and it cheered me up. I think bloging like a mad woman in the middle of the night, or early morning helped lol. Sometime i express myself better in writing than i do when i try to voice it. Kevin even look at it and seen what has been bothering me for a while. helped out there too.

I think im starting to get some ideas for ideas for his gifts. I am going to make him a coupon book for the things he likes. Like one night of any movie you want to watch, one dinner of your choice, and so on like that. I think i will name it the "Bitch Free Coupon Book" all the things i will do with out Bitching about haveing to do them. I guess i bitch alot to him and it frustrats him i can tell. but he goes on and does not say a word. Along with the dvds im going to get him and the OCC monoploy game i think he will be set. Thanks Shmee for the idea you told me today thats what sprung the coupon book.

Im really excited for this weekend. should be alot of fun. but i cant tell you what it is its confedentional (i know i cant spell)

but i must go watch some tv and fall asleep early so i can get up for a change. See you all in the AM
Go Team Coleman

Thats life i guess

Well 2 in one day kinda. Its four in the morning and i cant sleep hell i cant think strait today. I have been feeling like i cant live up to anything ever feel that way? I have spread my self to thin and worried about everyone but my self latly i guess i just care to much sometimes. Now this is not a poor me blog by no means just trying to get out whats on my mind. So bear with me and if you dont want to read any further then by all means stop now and go else where. If you do want to read i must warn you i may be going deep inside my litte mind, or what i have left of it.

I started this semster thinking I could handle what i have set my self up for. 6 classes, Tator warned me, Dr. Ducktape warned me, the hubby begged not to, and most of my friends told me i was crazy. Well now i agree. I cant handle it all. I have had a mental block all semster, as most of you have seen. My house looks like a tornato hit it and I do belive my marriage is now on the rocks because of it. I want to give up everything so bad but I would only be doing what i have been doing all my life. When is it all to much? When do you find that point? I have been asking my self that all semseter when i wake up still tired, when im sitting class about to fall asleep. Most people seem to find a way to blame this on my gaming. Its not. Some have blamed it on my house guest i have every night. Its not that either. I cant sleep cause i feel like im drowning in everything i feel like im behind on something which is everything most of the time. I lay awake all night sometimes thinking about what i should be doing that im not cause im just laying there.

Now as of tonight its got even worse. I think my good intentions and caring about other people has been miss judged as noseness and a way to cause drama. Its not that all I just dont want to see anyone get hurt in the long run. I know that niether party would do anything its not them i worry about. Its the rest of the world that might want to bring these people down. As i was all ways told when i was younger "It's all fun and games until someone gets an eye poked out" maybe i have been clear as mud for people I still hope understand me come monday.

The hubby is asleep and worried about me. I just want him to know hes wasteing his time there no sence in worrying about me cause 99% of the time i worry enough for the both of us.

I miss home not home as in ashe either. Home as in Utah. We cant get our heads above water enough to go out there. I call my dad and my sister all the time but its not the same. My niece will be driving soon i have missed alot in her life cause im here. And when god decides to bless us with child of our own child im scared my dad wont get to see them. I know that moving to NC was the best thing i could have ever done. If i would have stayed there i would have been with trash, as i will call him here in hopes he never finds me, and i would never have gone on to school and i would have always been stuck in a no where job. But its the holidays and its the hardest time of the year for me. I have told some of you how i feel about this but once again this just one of those clear my mind blogs im sorry if the same story different day.

The hubby keeps telling me not get him anything for christmas he has told me that for the last 3 years and he always ends up with some rinky dink thing or one year nothing cause he wont tell me what he wants or i just cant find him the right gift. I dont knwo what to do I want him to have the best gift i can get him. Something that i know he will love but wont know about until then. Hes still asleep i can hear him snoreing too. He will wake up soon and yell for me again to make sure im ok. I love him dearly and hope he can handle me for the rest of the semster cause it might get ugly here soon.

But I think im done now i want to tell you the reader who ever you might be im sorry if alot of this does not make sence it is 5 in the morning now and i have been up since 8:30. Maybe all this blowing off steam or all the tears might mean i get a few hours of sleep to i can get up and get something done.

Thank you again please over look my spelling

need to blog more offten

Im such a slacker!!!
Well im sitting here in class with nothing to do and im bored. With a baned on myspace i have nothing to fill my boreing classes with when i have nothing eles to do.

I came to work today something i really need to do more of. I like being creative on the spot. I did not think about the poster i made today until sat down to work on it. And I think it turned out pretty good if i do say so my self. Look for it on campus its was for the santa visit next week.

News paper is out of the way for another semester. Im not happy with some of the stuff that was an outcome of censership for a lack of better terms. I seen the VP the other local publication here on campus and it had a big FU on the top and some comic of some one getting spanked and inside there was an article bashing gay people. Now i know there are people that are gay on campus and i have no problem with that. What i do have a problem with is other people bashing them. I dont understand how come we get censored but the other group does not. Not happy about that at all

I have to start working on a Tshirt design for SGA over the weekend. They want something with a lizard on it, even thought the them is "Spread the new" i know it did not make sence to me either. They had another idea that half of SGA did not like. With a spreader and a corn feild and something that kinda looked like a crop cicrle. I might do it too and the lizard one and see waht one they like more.

With school almost over the thoughts of Christmas is looming on me. I have no idea what to do for Kevin. He wants a laptop but at last we dont have enough money for that. Oh well maybe I will get a good idea for him. Im up for any ideas anyone might have.

I cant wait until next weekend for the great enjoyment that will be had. Im not allowed to talk about it but im still excited.

I must go enjoy some lunch now